6.13.2012

Defeat the Defeated Attitude


A series of events today led to a post-8:00pm departure from the office. I stood at the door, hand on the handle, looking out at the rain and thinking about the umbrella I’d left in the car. I was tired, a little bummed, and thinking about the to-do list I had for the evening that now would not get done. Deep breath, let it go, open the door, walk into the rain.

I noticed as I walked through the parking lot that part of the sky was free of cloud and showed hints of the sunset. As I pulled out onto the road, a song I love came on. Singing now, when I made the next turn, heading north-west, I saw quite a spectacular sunset taking place.

With every swish of the windshield wipers I saw the way the clouds broke in the distance, giving way to a giant ball of orange-red fire, which seemed to float, suspended in the atmosphere between them. It painted the sky with streaks and smears of every color of red, pink, purple, blue, yellow and orange. The setting sun commanded with mighty force while the angry gray storm clouds lurked around on all sides like dark jungle cats stalking their prey. I tried to take it all in before turning due-east, grabbing a last glimpse in the rear-view.

Looking up at the ominous dark clouds above and ahead of me, a huge smile spread across my face. There against the murky sky was the biggest arc of a rainbow I ever have seen. Larger than a half-circle, the ROYGBIV masterpiece seemed to wrap around the whole earth. It disappeared from sight as quickly as it came while I drove further into the storm, but the smile stayed plastered on my face.

Crossing the Ashley, generally one of my favorite things about driving home at sunset, I no longer saw the sun itself, but the entire horizon was on fire. God’s canvas was ablaze with a mixing and meshing of colors, clouds and clear sky that, if captured in 2D, would seem unreal.

When I walked into the apartment, the kitties made quite a fuss over my arrival. They were hungry, and I was late for dinner. I had gotten so lost in the wonders of the sunset on the way home that I’d forgotten what time it was.

As I filled their dishes, I filled the air with praise and thanksgiving. Imagine how differently my evening would be had I allowed myself to get caught up in the defeating attitude that threatened to swallow me leaving late from work? I’d be as dark and gloomy as the storm clouds. I might’ve missed the sunset’s glory and I certainly wouldn’t have seen the rainbow. I’d be cranky and feel over-tired. My back would hurt more, and I’d be irritable.

There is incredible power in thoughts. I work really hard to be conscious of what I am thinking, what causes shifts in my mood, and on what I choose to focus throughout the day. It makes a huge difference in my quality of life from day to day, and I thank God for making it possible.

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6.03.2012

The More I Seek You


The More I Seek You
Written by Zach Neese

The more I seek you
The more I find you
The more I find you
The more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand
Lay back against you and breathe
Feel your heart beat
This love is so deep
It's more than I can stand
I melt in your peace
It's overwhelming